passing thoughts

jus wanted to potray the thoughts that are disturbing me right now. Dont know if it'll make any sense to u.




"When we make mistakes, we seek compromise but when others make a mistake we seek justice." Why do we always deal with negativity?We always see the negative stuff. We are all so good at finding others mistakes. Why is there so much of bitterness sorrounding us? Some people dont miss a chance to taunt you. Why such toxicity?

I think the reason behind this is our selfish motives. We always think about our unhappiness, our feelings. We never give a thought on how others feel when we make a statement, when we frown, when we over act!!!! Every human being is a mixture of emotions. But we dwell on the negativities. Each one of us have to swim through these expounding emotions-- be it ego clashes, wierd attitudes or arrogance or alienation.

All our actions are so entangled with others. We never digest the fact that our actions have an impact on others. I dont mean to say we need to be goodie goodie types, but we dont have any right to toxify the lives of people who are travelling with us in this journey of life.

The only solution to this is smile. This not only stops us from committing blunders but also keeps our co-travellers in merry. But make sure you've brushed your teeth before smiling.
Have a smiling face. We need not spread our bitterness or sadness around. A famous saying by swami vivekananda --"If you have a clouded face do not go out that day, shut yourself up in a room. What right have you to carry this disease out into the world?"

On Tuesday, this news swept across all the news channels 'Sanjay Dutt relieved by court'. 'Sirf Munna not a bhai' '13 saal ka vanvaas khatam' 'although found guilty for possession of armory, Sanjay can breath sigh of relief as all the TADA charges against him are withdrawn' Then many personalities like Salman Khan said 'He is a good person. We knew he will come out clean'. Mr Big B said "Dutt's family and our family have relations for years he's a good kid. He is like elder brother to Abhishek". His sister Priya Dutt said "we can sleep well tonight. It's a great relief"
Surfing through the channels, one news on BBC startled me. It read "Hisbul Mujahidin's most wanted terrorist 'Sohel Faisal' killed in Anantnag , India . Indian Major leading the operation lost his life in the process. Four others are injured.
It was past midnight , I started visiting the Indian channels, but Sanjay Dutt was still ruling. They were telling how Sanjay pleaded to the court saying 'I'm the sole bread earner for my family', 'I have a daughter who is studying in US' and so on. Then they showed how Sanjay was not wearing his lucky blue shirt while he was hearing the verdict and also how he went to every temple and prayed for the last few months.
I have nothing against sanjay dutt. I am nobody to blame him. He sure has managed to bring smile on many of our faces through munna bhai. Sure he did a lotta gandhigiri .Sure Sanjay Dutt has a daughter; Sure he did not do any terrorist activity. Possessing an AK47 is considered too elementary in terrorist community but then...
Major Manish H Pitambare got the information from his sources about the terrorists' whereabouts. Wasting no time he attacked the camp, killed Hisbul Mujahidin's supremo and in the process lost his life to the bullets fired from an AK47. He is survived by a wife and daughter who's only 18 months old.
he took the decision to attack the terrorists in the darkest of nights. He never thought about having a family and he being the bread earner. No news channel covered this since they were too busy with sanjay dutt.

Parents of Major Manish are still living and they have to live rest of their lives without their beloved son. His daughter won't ever see her daddy again.

there are some channels that air things about stars that embarrasses them. Things like breakup, temple visits, or it could be " y did she refuse to do this film?" .The channels also spend a lotta time on their past. "how was the relationship between the 2 when they enterted the film industry?". " are they jus FRIENDS?" But its sad to see people like major being unnoticed. So guys, please forward this message around so that the media knows which news to give importance, as it is a shame for us since this Army Major's death news was given by a foreign TV channel!!!

me got in TCS. damn super. congrats shilpa the gr8.

after a long time i thought of writin a blog. i was thinkin of a nice topic. but which ever way i think , i end up thinkihn abt the BEASTS that i encounter daily. so the best ting to do is continue writing abt my encounters with DEADLY animals.

it happened the day b4 i went to write tcs online test.i was studyin in my room. thn i switched on the comp an i jus touched my knee. an guess wt i felt something cold. was wearin a salwar 4 a change(my mom keeps remindin me "ur a girl, dress like a girl behave like a girl, adheg kelsa maadthiyo, how will u adjust an stay with ur in-laws" doooooooooralochane). sorry sorry deviated frm my topic. i found something cold on my knee.i got up an withered my pant an something fell down.u knw wt it was?A LIZARD. it was a baby lizard. it jus crawled away after fallin on the floor as if nothin had happened. even i sat down as if nothing had happened. thirgu nodlilla adhu. when a lizard can have so much of ego, shouldnt i hav some ego. the lizard should hav been thankful 4 spendin time with me or it should've said sorry. adrajji. so even i threw some ego around an let it go without speakin to it. i dint shout or make fuss. not a single word out of my mouth. shwetha, ur right am not afraid of lizards. good. u've understood me well in these 7 years. kudos.

thts abt the damn lizard. next animal. CAT. i luv cats more thn lizards,snakes an even more than mealy mouthed, fledgling SHUBHADA.(IS THE SPELLING RIGHT?).
i was sitting in the hall watchin a serial . i jus turned around an i saw A CAT near the sewing machine.it was lookin at me an i looked at it.it continued lookin at me an i continued lookin at it. b4 anythin could happen i shouted ammmmmmmmmmmaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
that poor little cat was a male jaathi i suppose coz it ran away the moment i shouted amma.
my mom came to my rescue again.
i guess thts it abt animals. some of u would hav got bored by now. an some of u like shu an shwe would b actin as if ur gettin bored. mukha nodkoli ibru. an get well soon to both of u. if u both c ur faces together in the mirror. thn god alone can save u. i dnt think even he can

whenerver u are not in mood. u tend to forget the main thing. humour. u dnt laugh at small jokes. u forget to smile. Always smile coz tht takes u nearer to god, nearer than any prayer. never frown at anybody. coz u never know someone is fallin in love with ur smile. never crib.an wenever ur not in mood, plz dnt take any decisions. u end up embarrassing ur self.

ONE OF MY FAVOURITE QUOTES-The best day of your life is the one on which you decide your life is your own. No apologies or excuses. No one to lean on, rely on, or blame. The gift is yours- it is an amazing journey - and you alone are responsible for the quality of it. This is the day your life really begins."

never rely on anyone 4 any kinda support. time changes an so do people.

How is anger escaped?
It stays deep within me.
I think about what is lost,
and the anger rises inside of me.
Every where I look,
I see what should be mine.
Envy turns to anger,
I think to myself 'who are these people? ,
they do not deserve such a thing I have lost'
I think about what is lost,
and the anger rises inside of me.
It rises to such a degree,
that anger turns to tears.

Tears the mind can't tell are true,
Pain the heart can't share.
Anger wrapped up in deceit,
It's more than I can bear.

The scourge I lay upon you now,
You surely cannot break.
This curse will last for on and on,
You've made a grave mistake.

The anger causes pain inside,
Too deep to understand.
And the pain, in turn, will cause,
More malice to my hand.

I just happened to read these beautiful lines on orkut---written by someone(ofcourse not me you know i am weak at writing right)

At yet another crossroad of life's journey i walked into a stranger
who joined me in the odessey of life
Days went by....Time ticked its way through weeks,months and years
as I trod life's torturous an unpredictable avenues never realizing the
subtle presence of this co-hort my fellow traveller

This span of is all but a collection of moments-

Moments of your vanity.....Moments of my consuming ego

Moments when I hurt u....Moments when you annoyed me

Moments when we differed....Moments when we conformed

Moments when you spoke....Moments when I listened

Moments when I didnt speak...Moments when you still listened

Moments of laughing together...Moments when we remained silent

Moments when distances crept in...Moments when intimacy erased them

Moments when I conforted to you....Moments when didnt undersatnd me

Moments when you complained....Moments when I apologized

Moments when I asserted....Moments when you acknowledged

Pain inflicted,heart broken,Sorrows lived
failures engulfed,existence torn apart,
integrity interrogated,hopes crushed....
But yet my heart bears no complains to god
and LIFE who have endowed me with a

"FRIEND LIKE YOU"

BUTTERFLIES most of my frenz know what butterflies mean to me.they are the most yuckiest and horrible creatures.I donno y but i am afraid of those BUTTERFLIES.I start shoutin the minute i see it.i jus turn the house upside down.
Another creature that horrifies me is PIGEON.It made my life hell.it was thr in my room before i was even awake and it used to make the yuckiest sound(gutur gutur).the flapping of the wings just made me shout.everyday i used to wake up with a big shout.so my frend in the neighbour dint use an alarm for some days.my sweet home in bombay has housed generations and generations of pigeons.In short i hate creatures that fly.I dont mind lizards and snakes.
This is an incident that happened in my class a few days ago.My frenz an I were sittin in the first bench(dont mistake me for a good girl,the last bench was not empty).2 monkeys entered the class.the 2 monkeys were standin in front me.my frend(daridhra) was staring at it and so was the monkey.before the 2 expressed their new found love to each other we jumped from the bench.my heart was in my mouth that very moment coz the minute we jumped those monkeys climbed our desk.daridhra says its her rebirth.kudos.
I encountered the terror of yet another animal today.a SQUIRREL.it jus entered my room like my dumb frends do without any permission.an its still here.this very minute as i am writin, the damn creature is in my room.this time round not only my heart but my stomach,lungs,intestines an wat not were in my mouth.the way it ran in front of my legs god.i donno wen the squirrel will pounce on me and attack so i have a body gaurd sitting behind me, my mother.u know mothers are always there when you need them the most.
The big and the most dangerous creatures in my life are my DUMB frenz.but i am not scared of them.i am terrified.I donno how many more animals do i have to deal with in my life.
HEY SINDHU EVEN THE TINY LITTLE CREATURES ARE VISITING ME.NOW ITS YOUR TURN.PLEASE COME HOME.
I think i just heard some noise behind me.may be its the dragon.....bye for now.IF I AM ALIVE I WILL SURELY BLOG.

finished my damn internals today.it was jus another proof that i cant write.i was sitting there an thinkin about the next topic 4 my blog.but the lady in the class was staring at me so i did write somethin in the damn booklet. i think i`ll end up gettin single digit in some of the subs.the main reason behind me thinkin abt the blog while writin the paper was that ,gettin 4 comments here is a lot better that gettin 7 or 8 marks there.
my marks last sem were 7,7,10 in one sub.(these marks are out of 25.am not that bad).the reason the lecturer gave me for these low marks was that technical terms were missing.the lecturers with 10 years of experience each(they make sure that they mention it atleast once in a class) get notes to the class while teaching, which contains all the "technical terms".they cannot remember the technical words of a single subject that they teach.an we are expected to remember all the technical words of all the 6 damn subjects( with zero years experience in each subject).IS THIS FAIR?