Tuesday, August 19, 2008


I am in a training room right now learning abt things tht go over an above my dumb head.i'll make sure my chilren dnt hav to go thru all these things. but i hav to. thts the call. i am attending this training with heavy heads tht hav exp of ovr 4 yrs.thy use these 3 letter acronyms thts way beyond my understandin.not jus the acronys their lingo an their "maathu kathe". an am the youngest 1 out here-- really young. i guess this is the 1st time tht am the youngest 1 in a lot. be it family or coll or friends i hav been the eldest an the SUPERIOR(wink -- thr r no emoticons).

I truly understand chota darsheel in taare zameen par now. i can see all the servers an the nodes an the cells over my head but my only wish bein-- i want 1 of the servers to fly an hit each 1 of the heavy heads sitting with me. thy look so serious an i dono "do thy hav a life beyond work?? beyond their heavy heads?? beyond their attitude???"

Will i be 1 among thm eventually?? will my friends be 1 aming them a few years down the line. right now i feel pathetic abt this training.


it was a long time since she liked a guy an this time she liked some1 whom she had thought, would never be her choice. she thought she liked him alright!! but did he was the question an the icing on the cake bein -- whether SHE liked him or not. was this all jus friendship or a bit more than tht. she dint know whr to draw the line!!

He an his thoughts always made her go glee. HE sometimes flirted in a way tht made things obvious but havin said so thr were times wen she thought tht she was jus another friend of his.

HE occasionally said"I have done THIS 4 u. will u come 4 a lunch an how abt a movie???" SHE was always happy wen she heard these sweet words flow out of his mouth but the catch bein HE wasn the same sweet guy all the time.This always disturbed HER.this raised a question in HER heart -- did HE or did HE not?????

SHE always dreamt of a guy who was romantic an sweet. a guy who thought SHE was his best friend --who would pour his heart out. who would be thr 4 her. but the irony here bein HE possessed none of these qualities. SHE never knew wat HE was thinkin an wat were his feelings. HE never was open abt the happenings an not happenings in his life.

SHE told him abt her fright an delight but in vain. NO RESPONSE. now wat say does SHE like him an is her ask 4 a romantic side of him a little too much???

it sometimes becomes necessary tht u open up ur heart an let others know how much thy r cared.

Sunday, August 17, 2008


When I cry you help me out
When I'm happy you hear me shout
When I grin you know I'm really mad
because you are my best friend
You can tell when I'm sad

You're there in thick and thin
You're my best friend
You hear me out when I want to talk
You help me out when I get mad
You are the bestest friend I've ever had

So hear me out when I say
You're the light in my day
You are the moon in my night
You shine very bright
You are the bestest friend I have
and I miss you

Funny how friends say forever,
people never seem to stay together

You told me not to worry, told me not to cry,
you said we were best friends, it was a lie.

I'm here still pretending not to care,
pretending I don't notice your never there.

To have a bond like we did was amazing,
but you picked a boy over that, over me, just replacing.

You hurt me so bad you will never know,
and the pain I keep inside I will never show.

You'd probably see it if you just tried,
and know how many nights I have cried.

But don't worry I'll be fine,
I'm not the one who left all my friends behind.

Saturday, August 16, 2008


Some days you seem so close
like you stand right before me
But then the next day you seem so far
like each other we can't see,
Each day is like a roller coaster
with my stomach turning upside down
You stand there looking
but yet you don't utter a sound,
I feel so confused and
my heart is being torn at its seams
And every night that I sleep
you seem to linger in my dreams,
Every time I look at you
I forget all my thoughts
And right then and there
it's you that my heart has sought,
Every time I hope
it turns into something bad
So for right now I'll stop thinking
And maybe things won't end up sad.

Wednesday, August 6, 2008


ATTITUDE who gives us this attitude? wt gives us this attitude? i hav always noticed tht attitude always comes naturally to the person who least deserves it -- who r losers.
i jus spoke to a lady who is supposed to be a senior project manager. damn tht lady was so simple an she made me feel at home. she was patient with my dumb queries. not once did she made me feel " sheesh i shouldn hav spoken to her at all ". loads of these so called " high funda IT guys" hav made me feel yuk an made me feel tht i cannot survive in this world.

chuck these IT guys, I mean my peers hav so much of unnecessary attitude in them. thy keep boastin abt things tht r irrelevant to us an them. an thy exaggerate it like " i just saw a mammoth today an it winked at me!!! i jus did somethin tht bill gates wld never b able to crack!!! i am workin harder thn my CEO!!! blah blah blah!!!

these kinda attitude hamper our relationships. at least it has hampered mine.